Friday, December 3, 2010

Forgive me for my long absense...

I have just been a bad unmotivated blogger!! BAD ME. I'm so sorry to those faithful readers who have been keeping up on what is going on in the Mac Household....

Baby update...I'm 26 weeks pregnant!! Amazing isn't it? I'm getting rather round and large, Sammy is growing just as he should. He is healthy and thriving and everything is going according to plan. The house is, well, a mess and no where ready for a baby, but I'm hoping in time that will change. I still marvel at the miracle growing inside of me. It is REALLY real, he truly exists inside me! And he makes himself evident by using my bladder as his own personal trampoline. :-) We are abundantly blessed.

We are getting ready for Christmas. Our tree is up and I'm going for the 5th annual cookie sweatshop this weekend. I can't wait! It will be a blast. My friend H has her little almost 6 month old baby girl and I'll have my 6 1/2 month belly....Who ever knew that we would be here, celebrating the birth of our saviour together and the existence of our children. OUR children! MY CHILD. Wow, it just overwhelms me!!! GOD IS GOOD!

I was reading my online friend, Thelma's, blog. She swiped a post and I swiped it from her...It just touched my heart. Its a little long but worth the read. Its a powerful reminder of our need to thank God in the blessings, and in the storms. Because without the storms, we'd never see the promise of a rainbow. And that in the end, He ALWAYS remains faithful and merciful. And I praise Him for that. I am not worth of the blessings God has brought into my life. Have a blessed day in the Lord. Enjoy...

The Blessing of Thorns
Sandra felt as low as the heels of her shoes as she pushed against a November gust and the florist shop door. Her life had been easy, like a spring breeze. Then in the fourth month of her second pregnancy, a minor automobile accident stole her ease.
During this Thanksgiving week she would have delivered a son. She grieved over her loss. As if that weren't enough, her husband's company threatened a transfer. Then her sister, whose annual holiday visit she coveted, called saying she could not come.

What's worse, Sandra's friend infuriated her by suggesting her grief was a God-given path to maturity that would allow her to empathize with others who suffer. "She has no idea what I'm feeling," thought Sandra with a shudder.

"Thanksgiving? Thankful for what?" she wondered aloud. For a careless driver whose truck was hardly scratched when he rear-ended her? For an airbag that saved her life but took that of her child?

"Good afternoon, can I help you?" The shop clerk's approach startled her.

"I...I need an arrangement," stammered Sandra, "for Thanksgiving?"

"Do you want beautiful but ordinary, or would you like to challenge the day with a customer favorite I call the Thanksgiving Special?" asked the shop clerk. "I'm convinced that flowers tell stories," she continued. "Are you looking for something that conveys gratitude this Thanksgiving?

"Not exactly!" Sandra blurted out. "In the last five months, everything that could go wrong has gone wrong. " Sandra regretted her outburst, and was surprised when the shop clerk said, "I have the perfect arrangement for you."

Then the door's small bell rang, and the shop clerk said, "Hi Barbara...let me get your order." She politely excused herself and walked toward a small workroom, then quickly reappeared, carrying an arrangement of greenery, bows, and long-stemmed thorny roses.

Except the ends of the rose stems were neatly snipped...there were no flowers.

"Want this in a box?" asked the clerk.

Sandra watched for the customer's response. Was this a joke? Who would want rose stems with no flowers!?! She waited for laughter, but neither woman laughed.

"Yes, please." Barbara replied with an appreciative smile.

"You'd think after three years of getting the special, I wouldn't be so moved by its significance, but I can feel it right here, all over again," she said as she gently tapped her chest.

"Uh," stammered Sandra, "that lady just left with, uh... she just left with no flowers!"

"Right...I cut off the flowers. That's the Special... I call it the Thanksgiving Thorns Bouquet.

"Oh, come on, you can't tell me someone is willing to pay for that?" exclaimed Sandra.

"Barbara came into the shop three years ago feeling very much like you feel today," explained the clerk. "She thought she had very little to be thankful for. She had lost her father to cancer, the family business was failing, her son was into drugs, and she was facing major surgery."

"That same year I had lost my husband, "continued the clerk," and for the first time in my life, I had to spend the holidays alone. I had no children, no husband, no family nearby, and too great a debt to allow any travel.

"So what did you do?" asked Sandra. "I learned to be thankful for thorns," answered the clerk quietly. "I've always thanked God for good things in life and never thought to ask Him why those good things happened to me, but when bad stuff hit, did I ever ask! It took time for me to learn that dark times are important. I always enjoyed the 'flowers' of life, but it took thorns to show me the beauty of God's comfort. You know, the Bible says that God comforts us when we're afflicted, and from His consolation we learn to comfort others."

Sandra sucked in her breath as she thought about the very thing her friend had tried to tell her. "I guess the truth is I don't want comfort. I've lost a baby and I'm angry with God."

Just then someone else walked in the shop.

"Hey, Phil!" shouted the clerk to the balding, rotund man.

"My wife sent me in to get our usual Thanksgiving arrangement... twelve thorny, long-stemmed stems!" laughed Phil as the clerk handed him a tissue-wrapped arrangement from the refrigerator.

"Those are for your wife?" asked Sandra incredulously. "Do you mind me asking why she wants something that looks like that?

"No...I'm glad you asked," Phil replied. "Four years ago my wife and I nearly divorced. After forty years, we were in a real mess, but with the Lord's grace and guidance, we slogged through problem after problem. He rescued our marriage. Jenny here (the clerk) told me she kept a vase of rose stems to remind her of what she learned from "thorny" times, and that was good enough for me. I took home some of those stems. My wife and I decided to label each one for a specific "problem" and give thanks to Him for what that problem taught us."

As Phil paid the clerk, he said to Sandra, "I highly recommend the Special!"

"I don't know if I can be thankful for the thorns in my life." Sandra said to the clerk. "It's all too... fresh."

"Well," the clerk replied carefully, "my experience has shown me that thorns make roses more precious. We treasure God's providential care more during trouble than at any other time. Remember, it was a crown of thorns that Jesus wore so we might know His love. Don't resent the thorns."

Tears rolled down Sandra's cheeks. For the first time since the accident, she loosened her grip on resentment. "I'll take those twelve long-stemmed thorns, please," she managed to choke out.

"I hoped you would," said the clerk gently. "I'll have them ready in a minute."

"Thank you. What do I owe you?" asked Sandra.

"Nothing." said the clerk. "Nothing but a promise to allow God to heal your heart. The first year's arrangement is always on me." The clerk smiled and handed a card to Sandra. "I'll attach this card to your arrangement, but maybe you'd like to read it first."

It read: "Dear God, I have never thanked you for my thorns. I have thanked you a thousand times for my roses, but never once for my thorns. Teach me the glory of the cross I bear; teach me the value of my thorns. Show me that I have climbed closer to you along the path of pain. Show me that, through my tears, the colors of your rainbow look much more brilliant."
"Through Jesus, therefore, let us continually offer to God a sacrifice of praise—the fruit of lips that openly profess his name. And do not forget to do good and to share with others, for with such sacrifices God is pleased." ~ Hebrews 13:15&16

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Happy 32nd Birthday!

to me!!!

And what a fabulous bday its been!!! Oh this is by far the best and forever bestest birthday ever!

I am, now, a double sweet 16 girl!! Hard to believe I'm 32 y/o!! I was inundated with "happy birthday's" and sweet words and just an overwhelming amount of love from friends and family!! It was a beautiful start to my day!

Not only that, today is the day we found out what this little bean is!!! This child did NOT want to cooperate (that shoulda been a clue to the sex right there! HA) So after 45 minutes of poking and prodding and moving and pushing my belly around, the tech was able to see a little present between the legs!! It's a BOY!!! We are so excited!! Samuel Russell MacIntosh should make his appearance in March of next year!! Funny how everyone was thinking GIRL GIRL GIRL except for a small handful of folks, and yet, its definitely BOY BOY BOY!!! I'm so excited and Matt is THROUGH THE ROOF crazy!!! We are blessed!!!

I'm having issues getting the u/s on the computer, but Sammy is 18w5d gestation right now!

So Matt and I were mean. I'll admit it, but it was a BLAST messing with mom and dad!!! (This being their first grandkid, we wanted to mess with their minds!!) We decided that we wanted to tease them and let them know that the kid did NOT cooperate and b/c of it we won't know for ANOTHER 4 weeks what we are having. (I know so cruel heh heh heh) My buddy H and I schemed up a plan, and she made us wonderful homemade cupcakes (they were DEVINE sister! let me tell you! THANK YOU!) and on them we wrote out "WE LIED ITS A ______" with letters to fill in the blank.











So of course we found out its a boy and I proceeded to call mom and just go on and on about how this kid didn't spread eagle and I'm so frustrated and upset and just laid it on thick. They took us out to dinner for my bday and we brought the cupcakes (with the BOY filling in the blank cupcakes) and gave it to the waiter for later. So continued our story of boo hoo and no sex known and blah blah and just laid it on thick. AND they fell for it HOOK LINE AND SINKER! HA!

So finally at dessert, i got the camera ready and out came the cupcakes in a little container and M/D helped open it up and dad is reading, and studying and all of a sudden goes " WE LIED ITS A BOY?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?" and this is the picture we got!!!











Oh it was fantastic! Not a dry eye around and even the waiters and other customers were teary eyed!!
It was just fantastic!! Lots of smiles and excitement!! It was just so much fun!!! So here they are holding their GRANDSON'S pictures!!!











I hope you enjoyed!!! As always thank you for all your prayers and support!! It has just been fabulous and such a blessing in our life! We are so honored to now SHARE WITH YOU the miracle of our BABY SON!! God is good!! Have a blessed day in the Lord!

Thursday, September 16, 2010

15 Weeks!!! :-)

Hello my fellow blog folk!!!

Can you believe it? I am officially one week into my SECOND TRIMESTER!!! God is so good. And this is still so surreal! I'm just in awe day by day that I truly am pregnant and the desire of our hearts is really a part of me right now!!! I'm so grateful to God for this little one that is growing inside of me!!! I'm still just so humbled that God said YES and brought on this blessing!!!

I'm feeling pretty good, getting there. Still very very tired, but able to eat! :-) hee hee. Thankfully I'm still about 10lbs under from where I started. I saw my OB yesterday. Baby is GREAT, BP was GREAT, my weight is the same as it was 4 weeks ago (all tho I'd lost like 4 lbs and have gained that back) So I'm still breaking even for them which is good, no gain in 4 weeks. However I believe that is about to change! HA! OB was VERY pleased and just tickled pink with how I'm progressing. He's such a sweetie!!! Just unreal that this is happening!! But it gets a little more real each time I go and hear that heartbeat!!!

HR was 160-170. I recorded the heartbeat, its so cool!! hee hee... then I texted it to everyone!! Well those who would care about hearing Jr.'s heartbeat! HA. It is locked in the computer but I have been unsuccessful in uploading it to the blog!! Sorry folks but I tried! I have no idea how to get a sound byte on to blogger!

So that's pretty much it. I'm slowly trying to work my way through the closets and clean stuff out and get ready to move the house around to make room for baby. One project at a time. Thankfully we still have about 6 months! Even then I don't think we'll be ready for this one 100%. But we'll see. ;-)

That is all for now! Nothing else new to report! Have a blessed day in the Lord!

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Night of Joy

So we spent the weekend in the HAPPIEST PLACE ON EARTH!!! I love Disney World!! Matt and I had not been there in over 5 years. Our dear friend J went with us and the three of us trekked to Disney's Night of Joy. Basically for those who don't know, its an evening thing 7pm-1am and its just full of Christian music and singers along with all the fun/rides/food/etc. It is a blast and so uplifting to the soul!!!

Hundreds of Thousands of people worshiping God together!! In the middle of Magic Kingdom, well you just can't get better then that! We saw Chris Tomlin, Mercy Me, Group 1 Crew, Casting Crowns and heard a bunch of others that were playing through the two nights.

I was very blessed because the only reason I could go is J pushed my fat tush all over Disney in a wheelchair. We had other plans to have Matt drag me with the power chair, but alas, Disney rent-a-chair's did not roll so well and we ended up crashing into baby carriages rather then moving forward together! EEK. He was such a blessing b/c I never ever woulda been able to go and handle the heat/humidity and all that walking!!! But he claims he had a blast too!! So I don't feel too bad! :-) I'm really grateful for his care and generosity b/c it was a wonderful weekend!! I'm so glad we went!!

So Pictures were being silly so I'll just have to post the link to go check out the Photos. PHOTOBUCKET

That is all for now!! I know I've been a little behind in posting, but I'm only JUST starting to feel better and have some energy!! But more to come! Promise!!! Have a blessed day in the Lord!

Monday, August 16, 2010

I apologize for my absence...

But its been just a little crazy here! and I'm feeling quite poorly. Guess I'm preggie! :-)

I'll start with saying little bean is doing well. I'm 10w4d right now and ready and willing to move into the next trimester. I'm kinda going backwards. I'm more nauseous, pukey, sore boobs and bleh NOW further into the 1st trimester, then I was the 1st 8 weeks. An online bud of mine reminded me that my HCG levels are now DROPPING and progesterone is RISING, so the flux in hormones may be causing this fun time I'm having! I'm just not a fan of uncontrollably puking in my bathroom sink! GAG. My belly is pooching, but I'm still looking more like a fattER girl, then a preggie girl, but I'm sure the time is coming! I'm definitely in maternity pants now b/c there is no buckle in my closet that will button at this time! HA

So TMI is coming...You have been warned!!

So update on the "crazy". Matt and I had a scare Saturday a week ago (the 7th). We were going about our day debating if we wanted to go out when I began to bleed heavy bright red flow. It was not just a little spot here or there, but rather an extremely heavy flow (heavier then a period). It lasted about 1/2 hour and then stopped as fast as it started. Thankfully we were both HOME and not out and about or work, church, store or anywhere else where soaking through your pants with blood wound have been horrifying to the people around you. And thankfully Matt was with me as I began to panic. He immediately just held me as i sobbed, wept with me and held my belly praying for our child. We were sure that this baby was being taken from us. I cleaned up, laid down and we called the OB, FRANTIC. I could not contain the tears, this was our baby our miracle child God had given us, and the thought of loosing her now, just was heart crushing and devastating. We, of course, were directed to the ER so they could figure out what was going on.

We quickly grabbed everything and went to our local ER, it was pouring, Matt go DRENCHED getting out of the van. Of course it was so very busy in the ER, but they were kind enough to get me back to a room in 1/2 hr so I could lie down. The tears flowed freely just praying for this child. So many people started praying for us. (its amazing what a quick post on Facebook will do!) My brother, who was at my mom's when we called her, was so awesome and got his small group prayer chain going and before we knew it there were DOZENS of people praying for us and our baby. We were able to finally calm down and just pray and hold each other, begging God to keep our baby here, protect her from whatever this was.

We were finally seen (and of course it was old home week as our nurse and like 1/2 the ER staff were all folks I worked with or knew from somewhere!) and amazingly the bleeding was completely GONE. Not a drop, and hadn't been since we were home...So odd, but reassuring. The doc performed a pelvic (oiy poor area is just so violated) and had me straight cath'd!! ACK! No matter what the nurse said about it "not hurting" was a LIE! And lemme tell you she was lying to the wrong chick! Sheesh. But during the exam, not a drop of blood and a closed cervix. Praise God. Labs were all normal, but we were waiting for the u/s. That was going to be our definitive answer....Were we going to see/hear a heartbeat.

Finally almost 4 HOURS after getting to the ER, they took me back to u/s. Thankfully Matt was at my side. It of course was internal as Jr. is still very small. I couldn't see the screen, and I just asked the tech to please let me know if the heartbeat was there, I didn't need anything else, just that. She told me she couldn't tell me yay or nay but better yet...turned on the Doppler. And we could hear the wonderful flutter of a heartbeat!!! Praise be to God!!! Can I tell you that Matt and I just melted into a puddle of praise and tears. Our little one was alive and well, with a strong heartbeat! PRAISE JESUS! It was the best sound in the world!

We stayed another several hours, getting fluid being monitored, but it didn't matter, b/c the baby was OK!! You could have kept me there over night and I'd have said OKEEY DOKEEY!! The ER doc wasn't really sure what it was, but prescribed me mandatory bed rest for 3 days and follow up with OB. So we came home, and I stayed in bed/couch until my appt on Monday with the OB. Then after another scan that showed a dancing wiggly baby with arm buds and a strong heartbeat, I was seen by the wonderful Dr. V who gave me the answer I needed to, "WHAT THE HECK WAS THAT !!!!".

Basically I have a pocket between the placenta and the uterus where the placenta didn't adhere quite right. B/c of the vascular-ness (is that a word?) of the area, blood pooled. After some over exertion physically on my part, the area pulled away and dumped the blood, causing the overwhelming amount of blood and the quick stop. My area is small, so harmless, all tho I must take it easy. Work only, no lifting, no bending, and no, ahem *blush*....I can work and come home and REST. To which I answered "you got it!!". I will do whatever has to be done for this little one!! Matt has been FANTASTIC, doing laundry, cleaning sorta, but keeping me fed and groceries in the fridge. Running to the grocery store for my weird whim of a craving. (not too many yet) He is such a blessing.

So that's it! Jr. gave us a helluva scare, but everything is OK! See why I've been quiet? Freaking wore me out man!! Yowsa! I go back to the OB on Wednesday for another check up. We have a detailed u/s next week to look for genetic and birth defects (not worried, just would like to know if that is the case and its recommended by my OB office). And every day we just praise God for this little one. We really don't know how many days we have with anyone, so we rejoice with each and every day! However I'd really love it if there were no more of these EXCITING moments in this pregnancy! OIY.

Well, on that note I'm headed to bed. I'm exhausted from the day and tomorrow brings another one! Hope everyone is well! Have a blessed day in the Lord!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Growing day by day....

Hello everyone. I apologize for not updating more frequently, but I find myself in this state of quiet. Not really reading, not writing, not journaling. I know I should be writing every single detail of this miracle pregnancy down, but I'm just finding my self needing to be in a place of quiet. I know sounds weird, makes sense to my brain!!!

I, or rather, WE are doing well. I am 9 weeks pregnant!! Can you believe? I know I can't either!!! I have graduated to a standard OB patient and had my first appt on Wednesday. Mom came with me hoping to get a glimpse or hear little one, but I did not have a new u/s at this time, but I have one next Wednesday scheduled. Everything looks great, all tho my BP was elevated, something they are watching, it has been since I started IVF. And mom had my OB laughing so hard he had to stop mid exam. Yea, it was an interesting day!! LOL.

So pretty much this appt was about history, praising God, vital sign check, pee in a cup and all the internal stuff. I'll spare you the details of a Pap smear but I will tell you that my OB said I "feel very pregnant" when he does the internal. We're moving right along! So even though we didn't see our little bean sprout, I'm reassured that my body is changing and growing, so baby is too!!!

SO u/s next week, then follow up with OB the week after...He is still waiting on all my files to come from the IVF clinic, so holding off taking the 10,000 gallons of blood since pretty much all of it was already done. I got signed up for all kinds of stuff, and formula and got a new mommy goody bag with a pregnancy planner. Its amazing to have this happening. Is it real? Am I really going to be a mommy to a little one?

My OB is so excited...He just hugged me (and mom) and congratulated me and praised God with us. (he goes to my church) He is just amazing!!! So cool to have a GOD FEARING doc!! He has always prayed w/us before he did any of my surgeries. This man has walked the road of heartache with us, pretty much from the 1st year on. He has held us, prayed with us, listened to us, patiently waited with me as I melted into a puddle of tears and heartache and frustration. He has even teared up with us. So now he is just Praising JESUS with us!!! Knowing how much of a miracle this child is, and that all the glory for him/her is for God alone!! Its pretty cool...

Its just crazy! I can't believe I'm doing all this!! Its overwhelming!! I'm so humbled by this gift from God!!! Please join me in continuing to pray for this little one to grow grow grow, but also to offer up some praise to our God, for the gift of life inside me. Have a blessed day in the Lord!

Friday, July 23, 2010

7 weeks and 1 day

So we had another appt with our IVF clinic!! Little bean is measuring ahead of the game!! And is double in size from last week and a VERY VERY clear picture of the little ones heartbeat! SO VERY prominent!! It was amazing. AND b/c the ultrasound probe was so, um, close to baby, we could hear the heartbeat!!! It was amazing. 143 bpm.

I feel pretty good, still just in awe that this is happening!! So w/o further ado, here is our little one's most RECENT picture. This one ISN'T magnified like the last one. This is the actual size of our youngin!!! So clear that there is a somethin' in there!













AND I get to show you the video of the heartbeat!!!! The flicker inside the blob is the heart! The tech puts the arrow on the beating heart!! How amazing is this!! I'm so in awe! Have a blessed day in the Lord!