Monday, January 31, 2011

Counting down...

Hello my dear friends. I apologize for not writing. It seems that I've been in this place of just listening, being, and reflecting. My mind has been empty of words!! Strange isn't it?? HA! A friend shared with me that she went through the same thing when she became preggie with her twins after IVF. That she felt God just leading her to be still.

Maybe its the years of going going going, trying to reach/attain this goal of mommy hood, hurting, grieving, anger, excitement, hope, tears, disappointment. Just this on going whirl wind of emotion and drive, that when that final "goal" was reached, I needed to stop and take a breath, and rest in the miracle God has given us. Don't know if that makes sense or not.

So basically, it has made me quiet. I haven't journaled, blogged, written ANYTHING. Just been going day to day enjoying what time I have with Sammy while he is in me, before he turns our lives upside down outside of me!

Pregnancy wise we are doing good. I'm 34 weeks and 4 days today. Its truly a miracle! Sammy is healthy and active, growing LARGER by the day. Overall I'm feeling OK. Very tired, some swelling and annoying headaches, but no signs of preterm labor, no issues, proceeding on schedule. Dr. V is pleased with how everything is going. He is being extremely cautious, monitoring us very closely so that if anything DOES change, he can jump on it. Praise God for Him giving me a cautious doc that can calm my fears without me even saying a word. So concerned about things happening at the very end, yet God has brought peace of mind through an amazing OB.

We had maternity photos taken last weekend. I do not have them yet but promise to post when I do!! I can NOT wait to see them!!! I've seen teasers only! And now I have to wait patiently for the rest. Pooh, don't like to be patient! Hee hee. Our long awaited shower is this Saturday. We have friends and family coming from all over!! We are blessed!! So many people are wanting to be a part of this, have BEEN a part of this journey, and are ready to celebrate the arrival of this miracle!! Matt and I are just in awe and humbled by the generosity and the blessings that are flowing over us!! God is just so good and merciful!

Nursery is coming along as well. Getting painted next week, new blinds, and final touches. The "grandma's" have been awesome in helping to get organized, and get everything ready to go for Sammy! All the final stuff is coming together~!

We start birthing classes on Thursday (that will be HILARIOUS to see Matt's face!! heh heh, he has no clue) and I continue to see my OB 2 x week. Movin' along!

Well that is it for an update. Sorry its not much, like I said I'm in a dry spell for writing. Please know how grateful we are for all of you, your prayers, support, love and blessings. This journey, even in the heartbreaking times, has brought such joy because of the awesome people God has brought into our lives!! Even through infertility, we are blessed!! And I have to say, that I'd walk this journey over and over, to have the people in our life that have been our rocks. And we just want to say THANK YOU. Well pictures will come next post! Have a blessed day in the Lord!!