Thursday, February 28, 2008

I love Florida weather...

BRRR IT'S COLD! I woke up to 38 degrees this morning! eek! I love love love the cool weather, but it won't last, supposed to be warm again by tomorrow. :( poo. I love the 60's such a crisp wonderful day outside! We just had a fire drill at school and I about froze my britches off, forgot to bring my jacket out! OOPS!

So not much new, I'm feeling back to normal again! no more sore throats! I'm still taking the antifungal med and will until next week. I go back to the ENT on Wednesday to be rescoped (ick!) I'm so grateful though, a 6 week sore throat and being told its "in your head" will really make one nutso!!! But no more, i really am OK and feeling better!! And not crazy, well not totally anyway! ;) I miss choir too, which hopefully i'll be cleared for again next wednesday. i've been on "voice rest" from straining. And still if I talk to much, I get hoarse pretty fast. I can't hit the high notes now either, guess I'll need to be an ALTO HA!

The concert on Saturday was AWESOME!!! Casting Crowns ROCKS! so very cool and very annointed! Ran into a bunch of people I know that i haven't seen for a bit! It was good to meet up with folks again.

Well we are almost officially allowed to start trying again for our little one(s). By the time my cycle is ready for attempting, it will be OK to start again. Really and truly I'm just glad to be done with that horrible anti HIV med and mending again! I want to be back to my NORMAL!

I've also decided its time to seek some help in dealing with all the emotions and turmoil of the last couple of years. not just b/c of the infertility, but also dealing wtih Oma's death, mom's mauling, dad's surgery and just all that I've gone through personally and us in our marriage. Mom is seeing a counselor at church and b/c mom and I lived through so much together, we kind of feed off each other. So the counselor recommended seeing me as well b/c I fill in the blanks for mom's story and mom for my story. if that makes sense! :) So next Saturday I'll try it out and see. I'm a little nervous b/c I've never been one to enjoy going to counseling, but I need too, Its time.

Well its time for work and its getting busy! So back to the grind! HAve a blessed day in the Lord.

Saturday, February 23, 2008

Casting Crowns

I'm so excited. Matt and I are going to a concert tonight! WE haven't been to one in soooo long. It is one of my favorite Christian bands!!! Casting Crowns!!!

THEY ROCK! I love love love them! so I bought the tics for matt for christmas, but its more of a mutual gift b/c I wanted to go so bad! So its purdy cool. We have the accessible seats which aren't that great b/c if ANYBODY stands in front of the section, you can't see...they really don't make it a ROCK ON time for those in wheelchairs. But we can hear them! which is whats so cool.

So waiting for matt to get his butt home so we can go! YAY!! WOO HOO! Bringing the camera too, want to see if I can get any pics! or at least sound bites! yay!

have a blessed day in the Lord!

Monday, February 18, 2008

Extreme Makeover Home Edition

OH MY GOODNESS, dunno if any of you saw it last night!!! But I'm just sitting in awe amazed at this young man and what he stands for...

For those who didn't see, there was this young man who was born disabled and blind, who is in a wheelchair, but has some amazing musical talents! just a cool dude. He had a cool little saying that I loved . He said that to be blind is an ABILITY to him b/c he "sees" people for who they are on the inside b/c he is not able to judge people for what they look like or b/c of their physical disabilities.

So often, Matt is judged b/c he spends his life in a chair. He has to "prove" himself on a daily basis to those who think he does not deserve to be a part of society, much less a hard working, family man. He is judged on his wheels and on what he is unable to do, and b/c of their ignorance, such amazing wonderful qualities are over looked.

I'll give you an example at his work, there was a customer that went to his boss and asked the boss "You let a cripple work in your store? What kind of business is that??" Now luckily Matt's boss has absolutely NO issue with matt and his disability, so most of the time, those kind of people are tossed out on their hineys! He even had a fellow employee that moaned to the boss how "inconvienent" it was to have a person "always underfoot in a wheelchair" that it was unprofessional. Luckily my hubby didn't deck him, and the guy was fired. again YAY for boss!

We had seen Joni Erickson-Tada at our church a few years ago, she shared her life story about breaking her neck and being in a w/c on a full time basis, about her hubby that cares for her etc. She has an amazing testimony and ministry. But she came up to matt after the service and we were chatting. Matt was recently in the chair and struggling with this new form of body image, even though he has been disabled his whole life. joni told matt that "our" struggle (those w/disabilities) are gifts from God b/c we become stronger and more connected with Him. not only that God uses those who are disabled as visual aids for the rest of the world, to teach them to tolerate and accept those who are different. So basically even on the days with the idiots are out and whatever, Matt CHOOSES to say that he is "teaching" by using himself (the visual aid) teaching those who are ignorrant about acceptance. Make sense? I guess it does in my brain! HA!

I pray that someone is inspired by this young man's words that was on the show, so that folks who meet up with people like him, or like my wonderful AMAZING hubby or like anyone else who has some form of disability, they will be "blind" to the outside, and see them for who they are on the inside. Amazing people who bring so much to this world!

OK i'm like all teary and sappy! I loved the show!! "Visual Aids" ROCK!!! Have a blessed day in the Lord!

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Still not better...

But finally have some answers.

So I had two whole days of feeling good. Still took it easy, rested, didn't want to over tax myself. Well I was great Fri and Sat, woke up Sunday with a HORRIBLE sore throat, well continuation of a horrible sore throat, just worse then ever!!! Took everything, advil, aleve, vicodan, sucrets, tea, gargling, sprays, NOTHING helped for long!! went back to the Doc who said i had pink eye again and that my throat was "fine" that it wasn't red at all that it was me being "stressed" and that was causing the sore throat. I'm sorry, WHAT???? I'm stressed?? Yes b/c you are NOT listening to me stupid doctors!

So i decided to take it into my own hands and called an ENT (ear nose and throat specialist) The office staff was FABULOUS and got me in the next day which is TODAY. So i gave them the whole sob story and told him that I HURT a LOT and no one believes me and tell me to take more advil and just go to work and be less stressed.

So the doc LISTENED to me and decided to scope my nose to my vocal cords to check the deep down back of my throat. OK, scope down the nose, fun? NOT SO MUCH!!! eek! But he said, when you look through my mouth at my throat, it looks completely normal, tonsils are fine, etc. But when you go through my nose down my throat!! ICK, my vocal cords and back of my throat are very red and inflammed, he said probably more so but I've been taking an anti-inflammatory around the clock that has helped it, it's probably been so much worse based on the pain. Basically he cultured saying that it COULD be strep or a bacterial infection, but chances are it's not, but just in case he is doing a full culture (B/c a rapid strep is not as accurate)

BUT he is almost 100% that I have a fungal infection around my vocal cords and the back of my throat! YAY!!! well not yay, but at least its an answer! HE LISTENED TO ME and believes me and not that I'm just "stressed" and making up the pain! YAY!

So i have to take this liquid (nystatin used for thrush) and swish and swallow it four x a day for a month. I have to go back in 3 weeks to be rescoped (EEK!) to make sure it's healing! Have to take it easy on my voice to limit inflammation, so no choir for now (not that I could, I sound like a dang frog croaking not to mention it HURTS) and it's gonna take time to get better, so to keep taking the anti inflammatorys...BUT i'm gonna be fine and I'm not CRAZY!!! (well not about being in pain or sick!!! Crazy in other ways!) I can NOT tell you how relieved I am!!!! *BIG HUGE SIGH*

So that is the BIG update for the moment...I go back to work tomorrow and all should be hunky dorey in a month or so!! YAY...OH and I added a slideshow to the bottom of the blog, shows a bunch of pictures without crowding up the page!! I'm so proud, i need to figger out how to put it as a sidebar, but I'm not that smart yet!!! Let me know if you can see it! Have a blessed day in the Lord!

Saturday, February 2, 2008

Wow, it's been nuts...

I know I know I'm being a very bad blogger and not typing much. BUT I have a very good reason.

Last Thursday I ended up with a sore throat, nasal junk and a fever. Well b/c of the anti HIV med (Yes I'm still on the stupid drug!) I had to follow up with the work comp folks to be tested and what not b/c of the fever. So I went on Friday, still had the fever, and they drew butt loads of blood from me. The w/c doc said if the symptoms worsen to follow up in the ER over the weekend. I figured, I've got a bad cold, it will be OK just worn down and not much of an immune system.

Fast forward to Monday. Woke up with my eyes all gooky and sealed shut. Gross I know. Well I knew that I had pink eye. I also noticed that the drainage was dark green. EWWW (More TMI coming, consider yourself warned! LOL) So I called w/c who said I needed to go to my doc. So to my MD I went. Well she informed me that I had a bad sinus infection, bronchitis, an ear infection and pink eye from the sinus infection. Bascially my immune system is shutting down and I'm not fighting so the bug is taking over. Call if anything worsens. NO PROB DOC! Well got some antibiotics, started them and figured I'd go to work on Tuesday...Uh no. Monday Night I got really really sick, severe pain, lethargy and just really sick. By tuesday morning I was symptomatic of a fever but had a sub normal temp. Mom came to check on me and took me to the ER where they rushed me in...

Pretty much immune compromised and very sick, couldn't even get a temp! So they did more butt loads of bloodwork, gave me fluids and bunch of IV stuff for the pain and bugs. I basically had dark green drainage from everywhere, and puss from my sinuses! NOT good!!! the bug was taking over and antibiotics weren't kicking in! mom stayed with me all day and evening. I finally spiked a fever that evening and they let me go b/c it looked like my system was kicking in finally. But I have been banned from work until Monday...

SO i've been out all week and only just started feeling human again yesterday and today. All though I'm still weak and don't have much stamina. I'm happy to say my "drainage" has died down and is no longer the color of a christmas tree! My HR guy at work feels horrible b/c basically they made me take the Combivir and it's what wiped out my immune system. I had to fill out that FMLA paperwork to protect my job and position... And I still am on cut down hours until I'm done with the meds. 6 days to go!~ THANK GOD!!! Hard to believe how bad its been but thankful it's almost over! Will still take several weeks for it to work its way out of my system!

So back to w/c doc on Monday for more bloodwork. I'm like out of veins! sheesh! and back to work monday as well! Should be interesting. Haven't missed a week of work in forever!! hopefully my clinic didn't explode without me! They've been great, sending me emails and calling to make sure I'm ok! Much better at this school! DEFINITELY!

Well off to finish traffic school (Yes I got a ticket, nother story for nother time!)

Have a blessed day in the Lord!